Drive-by, the musical.

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An interesting observation I made yesterday, is that this place and the past months actually have been full of defeat. Until now, I hadn’t quite realized that while Mozambique seems full of opportunities, it tends to promise things it doesn’t keep and build up false expectations that later dissolve into nothingness and dissapointment.

I mean, of course, I’ve done great things here. I’ve monitored elections, prisons and political changes. I’ve built up an interesting network and despite not having found friends I can both talk and dance with – I met a few beautiful people that I will keep with me always. I’ve been enjoying the weather, the music, the wildlife and Maputo. And I have traveled, seen palm trees, and learnt quite a lot of Portuguese.

But now, after five months, I must admit I’m kind of loosing my balance. What’s next? Was this all? Why am I so far from the people I love, and what should I do in order to reanimate my finances? Where do I apply to get some real, sincere hugs?

So, Im starting a new consultancy on Monday, because that’s what I apparently have become – a consultant, and on Tuesday I’m travelling up north. To work. Getting acces to areas I’m very interested in. Doing things I really love. Meeting people, photographing, writing stories, reporting. Contributing with my skills. Getting paid to do so. Doing it for an organization I believe in and respect.

I should be happy. What an experience! However, the general feeling of uncertainty seems to completely have killed looking forward to things. Maybe on Monday. Also, this will be pretty insignificant in terms of contributing to my budget. But still, the experience is priceless, it’s an investment in myself which is worth more than anything else. Problem is that this excuse could force me to live off my savings for another year. Not sustainable.

But then, as usual and provided that proactivity won’t fail, I’m convinced that something suddenly will pop up and solve everything I have been worrying about lately. And that’s the thought that keeps me company while sitting on the front porch of this big house that suddenly got empty. The sun has just set, the evil mosquitoes are coming out, and a small car just swooshed by, blasting Celine Dion through its open windows.

I felt like being in a drive-by scene in some kind of melancholic musical.

Anyway, back to responsibilities and obligations – oh, happy Saturday!

Better get this one right.

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This is Mozambique, and basically, most things are “Yes, yes, five minutes!” and “Okay, no problem.” around here. And as much as you just can’t really take anything for granted, you kind of have to trust that it somehow will work itself out – because it usually does. However, there is one very random thing that seems to be extremely important, unquestionable and set in stone, and it’s the definition of the hour of the day.

So, the lovely deal around here is that you say “good day” to almost every person that you for a moment have eye contact with. People that pass you by on the street, the guards outside of your house, people who try to pretend that they know you, people who try to sell you things, and so on. The Mozambicans are probably the most generous people I have encountered so far in terms of greetings. But there is a risk, and this risk starts at 12.01pm – because at that precise moment, the bom dia suddenly transforms into a boa tarde (good afternoon) and if you would accidently get it wrong, you will instantly be corrected, by the children passing you by in the staircase, by the guards outside of your house, by everybody. Getting your greeting right is very, very important.

Sometimes, the people will actually look at their watch before greeting you, and if you get it wrong they will say “no, no.. it’s boa tarde now”, always with a smile, but very firmly letting you know that this is not something you mess with. Now, this further evolves with boa noite, which is good evening, or good night. Apparently, this starts just when the sun has set and it’s become dark, and the definition is a little bit more vague than for the other transition. However, one of my guards insisted that the noite starts at 6pm. So now I have to look at the watch twice a day before greeting him. He laughs when I do so, we both laugh when I get it wrong.

The last one is the most tricky one, and it’s the moment that the noite suddenly turns into dia again, and I haven’t managed to get my head around it yet. When I come back home at 1am, the guards will still smile through their sleep and accept a boa noite, but they usually don’t when it’s 3am and it’s totally unacceptable if it’s even later. This is a mystery that I shall solve. Maybe this weekend.

The photo above is an old photo of me in my old car, wearing a watch that I suddenly miss. And below is another one that has nothing to do with the text, I just miss wearing jeans really, really badly. Beside these extremely random things I very much miss my mother, my friends, and long Swedish summer days that last until 11pm. No boa noite over there before actually going to sleep, or I guess you don’t really greet people on the street either. I don’t miss that part.

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Cat in an empty apartment

Die? One does not do that to a cat.
Because what’s a cat to do
in an empty apartment?
Climb the walls.
Caress against the furniture.
It seems that nothing has changed here,
but yet things are different.
Nothing appears to have been relocated,
yet everything has been shuffled about.
The lamp no longer burns in the evenings.
Footsteps can be heard on the stairway,
but they’re not the ones.
The hand which puts the fish on the platter
is not the same one which used to do it.

Something here does not begin
at its usual time.
Something does not happen quite
as it should
Here someone was and was,
then suddenly disappeared
and now is stubbornly absent.

All the closets were peered into.
The shelves were walked through.
The rug was lifted and examined.
Even the rule about not scattering
papers was violated.

What more is to be done?
Sleep and wait.

Let him return,
at least make a token appearance.
Then he’ll learn
that one shouldn’t treat a cat like this.
He will be approached
as though unwillingly,
slowly,
on very offended paws.
With no spontaneous leaps or squeals at first.

Wislawa Szymborska

Darlings from far.

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“I saw the blog post about simple, random, and beautiful things. Four words for you: Birds chirping at night.”

I truly love my darlings from far away, some of my closest friends are people I’ve met on travels and when living abroad. These amazing people contribute to my reality with the most brilliant of input and we share priceless insights, trust and advice that crosses all kinds of borders of understanding, not only time-differences.

“Moving around has been a big part of your life, you can potentially calm down, but it wouldn’t stop you from seeing the world in different forms.”

“Es cómo lo de la velita en el pastel. Siempre keeping the fire burning, los dos.”

Darlings, thank you for being.

Samba

I’ve had the nicest of evenings with the girl I now live with. We’ve shared chocolate, wine, lifestories, music and the addiction we both have to travels. Now I need some samba, some love in the air, some happy people and some dancing. I want Havana, I want Maputo, I want Mexico City and just a little bit more of Rio de Janeiro. Miss Sabine just gave me the travel bug again and I’m ready to jump on a flight and go, at least for ten days.


Escadaria Selarón, Rio de Janeiro, Brasil 2008


Maria Rita – Num corpo só
Samba Meu (2007)

Ego

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So my mom goes: “Why don’t you put more pictures of yourself in the blog?”
I answer: “Because I don’t want it to be an ego-blog.. I don’t like the thought of uploading tons of pictures of myself all the time, that’s not the purpose of the blog.. I just use it to express daily randomness and little insights and some photography and music.. you know.”
Mom: “But I miss you!”

And how on earth could I ever argue against that? Here you go, Mami. Kocham cię.

Barcelona – A 6 Month Romance.

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Barcelona – my beloved. Thank you, you’re amazing!


Our relationhip lasted 6 full months and I’ve been enjoying every single day of it. The little streets of el Borne & el Gótico never stopped to both confuse and amaze me, the up-close insight into the protests of #Spanishrevolution, the never-ending dancing at carnivals and parties, all the great food cooked by my roomie Daneff, my darlings visiting me from around the world, the live show provided 24/7 by the neighbours, the fun I had when working at the Euroleague Basketball finals with the UNICEF, the hours spent relaxing in the sun in the Ciutadella park and at the different beaches in and around Barcelona, watching football, winning football, my work with the United Nations Association of Spain and most importantly – the boost in vocabulary I got from living in Barcelona, talking to people every day and from my Spanish classes, are priceless experiences that I always will carry with me.

And the people I’ve met – This post is about all of you. Thank you for all our shared moments – I’ve had a great time and many of us will surely meet again!

There is no other way to describe my time in Barcelona than great, I am in love with the city and thankful for the time I got to spend there. Somehow I was lucky to be living next door from one of the most beautiful buildings in the city, two minutes away from my daily classes, five from the UN Association, seven from Plaza Cataluña and 15 from the beach. By foot. In a beautiful apartment with really nice roomies and high ceilings.

Barcelona – Moltes gràcies!! And remember – this is not goodbye, this is hasta luegoI LOVE YOU!