Lucid dreaming

I’ve always had a vivid imagination, when I was a kid, I used to start daydreaming and make up scenarios and stories and experiment with how I would handle different situations. I love putting myself in chaos. Train crashes, robberies, riots, kidnappings.. being in the middle of horror and asking myself how I would handle it. After creating scenarios and working with my fantasy for some years I learnt how to distinguish imagination from reality. At one point I found myself in the middle of a really bad dream, realized it, and started enjoying. I could control what was happening and use the dream as a playground for my fantasies with unlimited time and possibilities. Kind of like playing a videogame, but so much better, more real and more fun.

Lucid dreaming provides you with a possibility to explore and live and try the things you always wanted to try. The only limit there is is your own imagination and it’s capacity of creating an artificial sensation of something that you have never felt, kind of resulting in the sensation that you think you should expect. My favourite thing to do is stretching my capacities and doing things that I know my brain can’t handle, there is no pain in lucid dreaming, but there is still fear, knowledge of physical laws and natural instinct that holds you back from doing things. The fun thing is to try to work against it. Jump off that cliff, go touch that puma, try climbing that wall. Once I tried to break a glass inside my hand, what happened was that it broke into small glittering particles and kind of dissolved into the air. No pain, no glass, no blood. I didn’t know what it was supposed to look like or feel like, and my brain clearly couldn’t handle it. haha

Another thing that’s great is going to places you have enjoyed and try to recreate the feeling you had when visiting them. After travelling for a while I have collected a few gems that I love visiting when I feel that I need to, what’s really funny is that though I visited the places for long periods of time and spent my days wandering around the streets, it’s often night and the streets are empty when I get there in my dreams to have a look around. Kind of like in the picture above from when we walked around La Paz in Bolivia in 2008.

Lucid dreaming is fun and I recommend it to any bored kid out there with a connection to their inner self. I usually enter by going “nah, this can’t be.. it’s a dream.” What also works is trying to read, looking at numbers or looking at your hands.. look around a lot and look for details in your dreams, they’re usually not all perfect, your brain isn’t good enough to recreate everything in a setting, and when you realise that things are strange, you’re in.

Now, don’t wake up and don’t be afraid, go flying instead – it’s a lot of fun.

Passion

I couldn’t say I agree with the political vision of George Bernard Shaw, but his writings on life are pretty striking.

“When two people are under the influence of the most violent, most insane, most delusive, and most transient of passions, they are required to swear that they will remain in that excited, abnormal, and exhausting condition continuously until death do them part.”

George Bernard Shaw
Getting Married, 1908

Circumstances

“People are always blaming circumstances for what they are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can’t find them, make them.”

George Bernard Shaw, 1983
Mrs. Warren’s Profession

No me odies, linda.

Photo taken at Lomma beach

Yesterday I spent the day thinking about energy and other fluffy things such as yin & yang in relation to relationships between people. I believe in the existence of positive versus negative energy that is present everywhere and that determines the mood of people and the ways in which they affect occurring situations. (That’s probably the fluffiest you’ll ever get from me.)

Sometimes you meet a person that fills you with positive energy and makes you very energetic and happy, other people make you sad and tired. Sometimes a simple phonecall from a friend can spark the feeling of either being sucked out of energy, or filled with it. This is commonly understood and nothing to discuss really, different people affect each other differently..

What I was thinking about yesterday was the balance. Yin & Yang, black and white, man and woman, rain and sun. We often hear that balance is the preferred option, we need to balance each other out. If you’re very calm, you need a person who will hype you up, and if you’re very dominant, you need somebody who will let you have that role without protesting. That’s the utopia. Finding balance. Harmony.

However.. after contemplating this for a while I went, “but what if two very driven, energetic and happy people get together, what happens then?” And what I think is that when you posess some specific traits, it’s not really about leveling them out, because why should we supress the essence of ourselves to compromise? It’s rather about enforcing what’s best about you. I believe that if two people that are loaded with very positive energy get together, what happens are not only amazing fireworks, but an instant and constant process of development and growth. Hype and happiness.

It’s just a thought, but I think I believe in it.

Karma

Yesterday was a nice evening. Beach, pizza, sunset & Avinka.

Today I bumped into a worried girl from Costa Rica in the airport, we found out she had missed her flight so she was sad and confused and didn’t know what to do. After quitting work I helped her to get her act together. We got information about what had happened, called her friends and got her luggage back, she already had a place to stay so I just left her my card, gave her a hug and told her to call me in case she would need me. An hour ago she called. I booked her a new ticket for tomorrow and she will call me from the airport to let me know if she’s okay or if she needs me to come there.

I’ve met truly amazing people on my travels who have let me crash at their places without knowing me, helped me out in various ways and just been utterly nice without asking for anything in return. I have collected a big karma-account that I want to balance out with the world and I really enjoy passing it on to strangers. People need help a lot more than we usually care about noticing, and most of them are afraid to ask. Sometimes it’s showing them the way somewhere or let them use your phone, sometimes they just need a smile from a stranger or one of those cookies you’re eating.

No matter what it was all about, these nice little encounters usually end with a “how can I thank you?”-moment and that’s when I usually go all hollywood-cheesy saying “if you see somebody who needs help, help them!”. haha

I don’t know if it actually works for spreading kindness and smiles, but if it does, it rocks.

What I need.

“You need somebody who will tell you that your ambitions are too high and take you down to earth, show you what life is really about and make you realize that you probably will be dissapointed if you continue dreaming the way you do and believe that you can move mountains.”

 Wrong.

As long as I have a clear perception of reality, there’s no such thing as dreaming to much. I know my strenghts and weaknesses, I know what I am capable of, I know that there are no impossibilities if I make up my mind on completing a task and so far I’ve done all the weird things I’ve said I’d do, no matter what others have said or thought about it.

I refuse to align to normality, thinking what needs to be thought, doing what needs to be done and living the way other people tell me to live. I refuse to forget my dreams and I wont be content with what I have and where I am. Being content means choosing not to grow, learn and evolve, it means stopping wherever you are because it’s easier that way.

Stopping is not my cup of tea, what I need are more experiences and I’m really looking forward to them.